My journey to the new me started four years ago when I peed on a stick, then three additional ones just to make sure it was correct. You never know with those light pink lines.
(Insert...me freaking out!!!)
I was a nanny, and oddly enough nannying for a family with three boys who happened to be a tad crazy. I was in charge of them for an entire weekend while their parents were on vacation. I joked that one day I was going to have three boys just like this family. Their boys were seriously a lot to handle. It was at their house that I had found out I was pregnant.
I had no idea what to expect. I was terrified, scared and nervous of what was to come. Was I able to take on this huge task? To be in charge of another human being? At the time, I thought there was not a chance. But, I was, and I am. Four years later and three sweet little boys, I am here.
Welcome to the new me.
I must say I love every single thing that comes along with being a mom.
Being a mom opens you up. I am so much more open than I ever was. I am more understanding, patient (I have to work on that daily!) and loving. But it also creates a more critical person as well. I have no tolerance for nonsense. It sounds like a huge contradiction saying I am more understanding but have no tolerance. I think I have just grown past all the BS and know what I want from life and what I want for my children, so I cannot handle drama or immaturity.
That being said, I personally love the new me. I feel more confident to stand up for what I believe in, because I have to pave the way for my children. I have to be strong for them, which automatically makes you more forward in a lot of ways. I am no longer timid or shy. My new outlook is "grab life by the balls and run." We only have one life...I am going to use it!
If I do not step forward and do things, no one else will. It is seriously such an amazing feeling. Being a somewhat leader of your family -- obviously Jordan is my equal teammate in this journey -- but man being a mom is fabulous. Having your children call you "mom," "mommy" or "mum" is amazing.
Sure it has it's downsides just like any other job. You are constantly tired, sometimes running on two hours of sleep. You may not have showered in a few days, you might not be wearing today's newest fashion or know the new "it" thing to do. You may wear your glasses all day long because it seems like too much energy wasted to put contacts in. You might run errands in your pajamas, but your child will be fully dressed; hello, they always check out your children first (am I right!?)!
But I know one thing: my children think I am the bees knees. They do not care. They think I am the real deal. 24/7. Okay maybe not 24/7, because I am sometimes the mean mom who punishes them, but nonetheless they love me. Unconditionally. And that, my friends is powerful. It makes me stronger. It makes me who I now am. It makes me a mom. And for that, I am eternally blessed.
Cheers to being a mom!
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